i make the same mistakes everytime. hurting the one person i know is the most undeserving of my selfish actions. i ask myself why, but i’m too afraid to seek the truth. what someone really wants can be scary and because of that it gets pushed back into denial.
i’m starting to realize i’m the worst person for him, but he loves me without a doubt. i’m foolish for running after the unattainable and not deserving.